I'm not a Mormon though. Well, according to them I am, but that's because they don't know me. I was raised in the Mormon faith, but as soon as it was my decision that ended pretty quick. See, if they really knew me, they wouldn't want me. I'm gay. I think we all know what that means for my relationship with that church. LOL
Breaking the news of my plans to my extended family(who's Mormon-ness can be seen from space) wasn't as pleasant and festive as I'd imagined. There weren't the supportive smiles and eager questions I hoped for. No, there were just gaping jaws, stern faces, and hysterical laughter. Gee, thanks for the vote of confidence there.
I should have expected this. These people haven't ever made a decision this huge in their entire lives. They have their lives set out for them by the church and their parents. Why should I expect them to understand? I guess I really didn't. My favorite reaction was from my grandma, bless her worrying old heart and steel hips, who quietly told me, as if it were a secret that no one should hear, "Nick, that is one of the most sinful places on earth!" Um, DUH! Then of course, by her standards, anyone not strictly adhering to the "gospel" is a sad lost soul. If only she knew just how well her sweet grandson will fit into his new surroundings....
The second round of getting the news out was much more pleasant. The only sadness was the same I was getting from my close friends. THEY ARE ACTUALLY SAD IM LEAVING!!! It has nothing to do with WHERE, just THAT it's happening! Hooray!! Finally, some form of support!
Now, to be fair to all of the amazing people that have made me feel like I'm even capable of surviving this, I have to acknowledge that I have the absolute best friends in the world. I haven't heard a single word of discouragement aimed to make me feel like I can't do this. So, THANK YOU!!!!
bless your grandma and those steel hips of hers. I'll be here to make sure you don't get dragged into the pits of hell.
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ReplyDeleteI love ya forever. I hope you dont think Im being unsupportive. Im just so sad that you are moving so far away. :(
I think it is a huge step and you are very brave. And honestly I dont blame you for leaving. There isnt much in this town for young single people. But you have to promise to come back sometimes and always stay in touch with me. I mean I did let you live with me once afterall. hehe.
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Hey! I'm one of those Mormons you sound so annoyed with!Sheesh!!! But I am really excited for you! I think you are extremely brave. So, do have work or school or anything figured out yet? I can't wait til you add to your blog so I can see what's going on! Oh yeah- remember your old, orange VW bug? I got to ride in it once, we went to some mutual thing, Tessa was there? That was SO LONG AGO!!! Anyway, good luck!
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